Woke this morning at 6:00am, only 4 hours after going to bed, due to sickle cell pain. Quickly grabbed a clean glass got some water, my bottle of oxycodone, a heating pad, and extra shirts to change into later struggled to the couch and began to ride out the pain until around 9:30. Now I'm debating on going to my family get together today.

Right now I'm not using the degree I've earned to its full advantage. I'm also am beginning to lose some proficiency with Microsoft Office 2007 since I've finished my Microcomputer Expert User certification classes. So working at Target for minimum wage, while is a decent start, should not be a position I would like to be in for very long. Travis has talked about looking for a new job for a while, Emile, doesn't enjoy his job, and Fred would just rather quit. With those people gone I'd want to try and at least transfer to a closer store. Taking the bus to work every morning to save gas is really taking a bite out of my day. With the bills and that its hard to save enough to buy a new pc quickly.

If I were to transfer I believe I'd save a decent amount of much in a quick amount of time. It would be possible to have a big screen T.V. in my living room and a computer in my new living room by the end of 2009. With a computer it would be possible to take my AS much further. I really just want to earn more to help my sister achieve her dream of becoming a RN and since we came from a poor upbringing its going to take both of us working on that dream.

Well I got Skate 2 and The Orange Box recently to tie me over until I can get a larger television. After that I could either play Xbox competitively or jump back into mmos again.

I'm almost scared of whats going to happen with Amber, Colin, and myself persuing our dreams. 

 Real life is just a vague memory. Raiding is your purpose in life. Your dreams are filled with images of Arthus and Thrall. You can calculate in your head the dps of any class by inspecting gear. You have toons on different realms just in case one crashes. The mere thought of Tuesday puts you in a cold sweat. Until realms come back up you listen to The Instance podcast and surf youtube WoW videos. Unfortunately you are beyond the help of even the best deprogrammers...

So very true.

And grateful, don't live your life hateful
Change for the better like the weather in April
Food for the soul, go ahead and grab a plateful
A heart full of hate, is a waste and disgraceful
[. . .]
       


Life is sorta good for now.  If bills can get paid on time next week and school goes well then everything will be gravy for the rest of April.  I'm not the main topic at the moment though; see I have this friend who is kinda stuck.  Normally I honestly wouldn't really get a shit like at all.  Yeah I'm a nice guy but that doesn't mean I care about everyone one.  Some people are filler they're just there going about their life not interested, gift, or talented in any way.  This person is insanly gifted, talneted, interesting and, good looking (not that I see them like that EWW).  It doesn't seem to register to them that they are the complete package and should walk, talk, and act with a certain swagger that puts the fact that they are the shit on display for everyone to see.  Even if they don't become the celebrity they have the ablitiy to become, I'd still like to hang around them hopefully they could become one of the fellas and kick it on occasion. I honestly wish I could tell them to just live up to their potential, and should they did decide to become more I'd have be more of a foe then a friend if I didn't warn them that it wouldn't be easy, heck it might even be painful.  

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. [. . .]It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquillity.  - Khalil Gibran (died April 10, 1931) 
( Ending Verse )

 YES! passed my math test... it was with a D but whatever as long as I get that degree who cares.  Maybe a Bachelors in Computer Sci isn't as far fetched as I orginally believed.  Priscilla told me not to go to college and I did it anyway and now I'm just weeks away from being done.  Also Nick at Best Buy is looking out for me trying to get me in with geek squad.  

HELLS YES!  Everything is coming up Rossi for once.

Murs for President is in my top 5 fav albums at the moment.

This moment of honesty
The world'll feel my truths
Through my Hard Knock Life time
My Gift and The Curse
I gave you volume after volume of my work
So you can feel my truths
-Moment of Clarity - 


'Determined' is the only word that can describe my personality at the moment.  I have tunnel vision focused on my Math 110 course which is pre-cal my weakest subject.  Recently I've pulled all nighters and began to study daily for every lesson just to survive the course.  Today I took a hit and did terrible on a quiz because I was playing catch-up the night before.  Improving my station in life seems very possible now that I almost have an Associate in Science and Microsoft Office certification. How badass is THAT!  I'm applying for a job at Best Buy for the time being while I wait for a position at scana to open up or the SCE&G roll of 'IT guy' to still be an option.  

Rachel Saxton... what more can I say.  Not since the birth of my little sister Amber has a female caused me so much strife.  Amber's birth may have been a time of major confusion; Amber herself turned out to be one of the greatest things in my life.  Maybe Rachel will stick around and become the most badass friend ever.  

 I love it!  Amazing my fav game. Its like I'm a kid again the first thing I did in the AM this morning is wake up see whats downloaded to watch and then play street fighter.

LOL lj don't tell me how popular I need to be. 

You've only made 2 friends.
Find Friends and Communities

A brief study of the things so instrumental to you
That make me feel flyer than lobbys at bellevues
An exclaimer just aramore no credentials from a school

Rachel & Jeff are hitting a rough patch so its all up to Jeff to step up to the plate and win her over with some grand gesture that comes from the heart.  I don't really know Jeff that well, but I hope he figures something out because Rachel has been my friend for years now, and she is stuck in a funk.  Apparently I look like a jerk because I took Rachel to go see her favorite band last night.  I offered to stay home since I had guests over anyway, but it was her favorite band and Jeff did not feel like going.  So I kicked people out my house hopped in the car and drove for hours to take her to the show.  Maybe that was being too nice?  I don't think I should have to move the bar down for her boyfriend to look good.  Eh I love that crazy broad.  If I couldn't drive and mc chris was in Charleston I'd expect someone to drive me to that show.

Well I feel like I've been wasting my talents for too long now and decided to try and write a web show.  This is either a really bad or really good idea theres no in between.  So far I've found two people have have acting abilities.  Assuming the writingb that me and a few other people crunch out is excellentb this could work.  The only thing missing is a cast, other writers, and equipment so this is going to require a lot of work.  Hopefully I don't bail by using school or sickness as an excuse. 

Three days ago at Hooters Tony, Jason, Clinton, Wyatt and myself destroyed at a Rock Band 2 competition winning free merchidise. Honestly I had a pretty shitty time and only went because I'm amazing at video games and was pretty much guarrentted to win.  For the past few weeks I've been hanging out a lot with those guys maybe a little too much so from now on I'm going to just chill out in my house some nights.  Which is hard since Wyatt & Dillon are my neighbors and we're all really cool with each other, and they have an awesome gaming setup.


God I hate Hooters. Women that normally wouldn't even look at me are flirting and striking up a conversations.  No thx.  Just act normal plz

I must never play tetris again.

Bad medicine is what I need
Shake it up, just like bad madicine
There aint no doctor that can
Cure my disease

Yes! Last day of class was yesterday after exams they'll be a huge winter break in which I can chillax to the extreme.  My Theater presentation was average, but I'm not really satisfied by that average.  I'm thinking of doing a scene from a game with friends and e-mailing it to my professor I really don't want to go out on a average note.  Icons in history never blend into the crowd. 

After all the presentations were done I complimented this girl on her dance and then she replied that my idea for a theater that does live adaptations of comic books / video games was a great idea.  Now I was ready to write that off as a knee-jerk reply; much like when someone says "Hi how are you" and you reply with "Fine how are you?"  But she went into detail with how God of War or a Final Fantasy would make an awesome production.  Such an attractive girl could be so down to Earth and knew about games enough to know about the heavy hitting plot games.  Once again an attractive gamer girl who is out of my league.  But I will go ahead and keep in touch since we both like plays and games.  Could be nice seeing a few more productions around Charleston.

True Blood is such a weird show.  I kinda wanna watch some more episodes but I need to get ready to go to a B-day party.

It's only in your head you feel left out
or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can

Crunch time and I'm running on 'E.' The math test that decides my fate is right around the corner and I'm kinda shaky after a night of studying.  I'll study some more today while I'm on this appointment, it should give me a great opportunity to get ahead since there're very few distractions while I get this blood transfusion.  The only thing that might bone me are the pre-meds. Chances are they're gonna knock me out.  

When you're running on 'E' you get stuck in this woe is me mindset.  Why oh why must I suffer this burden... etc, etc.  When in fact woe isn't me, and how did I end up this lucky.  The only two major downsides that I have little control over are sickle cell & no girlfriend. Both of which I could at least manage better with a little more effort. Sickle cell is pretty tough to control & getting a girlfriend requires an outside person which is a huge variable. Ohh well time to practice some math problems.

Go ahead and cheat a friend 
Do it in the name of heaven 
You can justify it in the end

So after watching some flix with a friend on the ride home down i526, I noticed a disabled vehicle on the drive home.  Being that it was raining and I was in the express lane I could not get over in time to the break down side to see if anyone needed help.  Since it was practially 1 AM, raining, and cold outside I decided to get off the freeway and loop back around.  I was able to get off and back on going the other way but when I needed to get back on I ended up getting on the wrong exit sending me back further towards my friend house.  After getting off the bridge I finally get on the right way and by that time the truck had been towed.  Oh well guess I'll pay it forward at a later date.

I meant such a cool girl at the mall a few days ago. The girl, Kat, plays video games just as much as I do and she likes metal which is cool imo even though I don't listen personally.  After chatting with her for a while she gave me her e-mail and myspace.  I added her and she said "Well you know where I work so stop by and say 'hey'".  Now I know I can't 'get with' her but w/e its just trying to get my crew members up.

 Grab your ball, grab your bat,
Head to the beach, grab some rays,
Better hurry up just got two days,



Mmm procrastination never felt so good.  Serious Math 102 test on Tuesday, and a Theatre 101 paper I need to get done.  And I've done NOTHING so far this weekend.  Well I take that back I got to disc 2 on Lost Odyssey and listened to the lastest podcast from IGN.com along with beating Green Grass High Tides on expert drums & guitar.  Feels like I've gotten alot done IMO.

I can't wait until I hang out with Rachel, but I don't want my class projects due dates to come up.  Oh why must time haunt me so.

One is silver, the other is gold.

Yesterday was a bit of a crazy day.  I Had my Priscilla (mom) over to my apartment for the first time since I've moved in, and that made me remember why I moved out in the first place. If only she knew how to interact; that would make hanging out with her much easier, ( Read more... )


Oh well at least the car didn't shut off downtown.  The water was up to the door and cars around me had flooded out in the street.  Surprised a 97 Altima made it through.