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Right now I'm waiting for the doctor to come back and talk to me. the last week I've been in so much pain I thought i was going to be hospitalized. I somehow made it to and from work but my preformance suffered. When he comes back to talk to speak to me I'm going to try and take control of my disease.
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Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes, and leap!
Defying Gravity by Glee Cast
Sunday night I decided to play a game with someone with a microphone on Xbox Live. This led me inviting SRK Guy to play Street Fighter 4. Previously I played against Guy and did terrible, mostly due to the sickle cell crisis I had a few hours ago.
I was almost scared to invite Guy due to me blowing up and nerd raging after losing to him. Not only did I call him garbage I invited him to spar where I then promptly got spanked and lost to the tune of 2-9. I then ranted on about how I believe I'm better than him and used my illness as an excuse. Well let me just say he learned just how good I truely am Sunday.
After winning the first two matches Guy became confident and started to talk on the mic at which point I picked Cammy I proceeded to kick his ass. The first match I won stopped his streak, the next match I won started my streak, then I happen to get a perfect followed by a few more wins. At this point he began to say things like "Oh I can't believe this kid" and "Look he's cheesy" I wouldn't let it phase me and continued to dominate; only losing when I picked a character I didn't know well. I then told him last time I wasn't feeling good and he didn't get to fight me at my best, now I'm near my best. Not only was my game up to the previous standard, but it had improved as well. The scoreboard ended up showing me with 9 wins 3 losses. The icing on the cake was the fact that he wasn't even America he was a Euro srk member. Thats right I've gone international bitches!
Tomorrow I'll go ahead and give this house a good cleaning, hopefully I can get it done in the morning. Early afternoon I'm suppose to get my hair braided which should cost me about $20. I plan on pinching pennies since theres an MC Chris fan meetup fast approaching. Brittany's friend Shea's birthday and I suppose we'll hang out for a bit, then I'll come home and enjoy the rest of my day off in front of the television. Tomorrow I'm writing a letter to my mom asking the name of my father.
Lighters up, lets get 'em
Though, though I'm missin' you, I'll find a way to get through
I know livin' without ya is impossible
Gone I know you gon' live on 'cuz you were my brother
And I love ya, and I miss ya
Stay strong, be tough, that's what the preacher tell ya
He never really felt ya, so he can't even help ya
Need a shoulder to lean on, somebody to cry to
It's like everything's gone but I'm a survivor
Standin' on stage in front of thousands
Don't amount to me not havin' my father
That's real talk, I know a lot of y'all got 'em
But you need 'em way more when you gotta go without 'em
And I'm without 'em, but that's life y'all
Sometimes you gotta learn to swim with no lifeguard
I'm alright God, shit I'm still breathin'
But lose hurt like bullets, I'm about to start bleedin'
Throw me down some comfort, 'cause my heart need it
Tryin' to cope wit my chances and meet 'em
There's a dark road ahead, but I'm tryin' to take it easy
Rest in peace Lil Beezy, my nigga
Though, though I'm missin' you, I'll find a way to get through
I know livin' without ya is impossible
Gone, I know you gon' live on 'cuz you were my brother
And I love ya, and I miss ya
Though, though I'm missin' you, I'll find a way to get through
I know livin' without ya is impossible
Gone, I know you gon' live on 'cuz you were my brother
And I love ya, and I miss ya
Smoke cush all day and pop painkillers
Fuck who don't understand it, this what the game did us
This what the streets showed us
This how the block made us, the same block where they layed 'em
I pray every time I cross the spot on the pavement, save me
Lord will I be next for the taking? Take me
I know I'm livin' like I know when I'm comin'
But I'm just livin' 'cause I know that it's comin'
And the end is comin', but I ain't runnin'
I and hidin' and duckin', I'm in the middle of a war, I'm alive and love it
I'm just speakin' from the heart of the dyin' public
We still beatin', we gon' rise above it
Though it seem like they cheatin' and we loosin'
We survive if nothin', they could never take the stride from strugglin'
I gotta ride and sometimes that ride get bloody
But I just think about my buddy and go after that money, but uh
Oh, we gotta get over, we gotta get over, gotta get over
It's almost over, and we gon' be alright
Straight Patrone out the bottle to the head now
We gettin' read now, bitch my nigga dead now
And all the things I never said, I gotta say it now
I shoulda said it then, now I gotta talk to clouds
Now I gotta walk around, brim down
Just tryin' to find my way to the next day, escape
Ya birthday could be ya death date
So I'm livin' like it was just yesterday, let's pray
Ten fingers together, can't bring 'em together
It's murda murda, I don't think it get better
So be a competitor or get out the weather
Me? I got a umbrella and a berretta
I'm just tryin' to make sure my daughter future progressin'
And behind that, I'm shootin' excessive, trust me
The beautiful dead, we livin' wit the ugly
I just tell my pops wait for me, I'm comin'
Though, though I'm missin' you, I'll find a way to get through
I know livin' without ya is impossible
Gone, I know you gon' live on 'cuz you were my brother
And I love ya, and I miss ya
They ask me why I wear shades at nighttime
'Cause I don't wanna see nothin' yea
Like I said, life ain't nuttin'
But a long extended road, keep drivin'
I done passed up plenty people
Up on the side of road, no help, keep goin'
Yea, lost a lot of passengers on the ride, kept goin' yep
Who knows when I'll run outta gas, yea
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I'm a little bit older so I still call it mojo
it doesn't matter cause if you got it you get it
and if you don't then you won't grow"
Get another valentines day is fast approaching and as usual I'm single. I'm starting to get a little tired of this shit. It all seems so pointless; I work but have no ability to save anything. I work at target JUST for the work experience and to support Amber. sigh
Why? there's really no point as of right now.
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If I were to transfer I believe I'd save a decent amount of much in a quick amount of time. It would be possible to have a big screen T.V. in my living room and a computer in my new living room by the end of 2009. With a computer it would be possible to take my AS much further. I really just want to earn more to help my sister achieve her dream of becoming a RN and since we came from a poor upbringing its going to take both of us working on that dream.
Well I got Skate 2 and The Orange Box recently to tie me over until I can get a larger television. After that I could either play Xbox competitively or jump back into mmos again.
- Mood:Dank
You're one year older, one year wiser,
Rock 'n roll star, king, czar, and a kaiser.
A room full of friends, a mouth full of cake,
Every present is for you and it feels pretty great.
You're the man of the hour, the V.I.P.
You get the first slice of the p-i-e,
But first blow out the candles and make a wish.
Put a smile on, cuz it's your birthday, bitch!
Hesh - Birthday Rap (Sealab 2021)
Well today is Colin's birthday too bad we can't do anything to celebrate since we're broke as a joke and all the money is going towards bills and preparing to move. Oh yes we're all about to GTFO! We'll have to stick in Charleston so Amber can finish school, but we will be moving somewhere like West Ashley, N. Charleston, or any other place were getting a job withing walking distance or near a busline is an option. Yesterday shit hit the fan with Bank of America and both Amber and myself are trying to contest one overdraft so that we can have a little extra cash to cusion the move. Colin is looking for work on his birthday which is pretty pro, me I'm going to pass classes obviously and get my degree. I was approved for a Pell grant for fall semester at TTC and that'll leave me with two degrees hopefully work will come a tad easier. Oh yeah I saved someones life, its no biggie though I plan on going about my normal life; adventure, excitement a Jedi craves not these things.
Amber's birthday in 3 days tat incoming!
So very true.
Change for the better like the weather in April
Food for the soul, go ahead and grab a plateful
A heart full of hate, is a waste and disgraceful
[. . .]
Life is sorta good for now. If bills can get paid on time next week and school goes well then everything will be gravy for the rest of April. I'm not the main topic at the moment though; see I have this friend who is kinda stuck. Normally I honestly wouldn't really get a shit like at all. Yeah I'm a nice guy but that doesn't mean I care about everyone one. Some people are filler they're just there going about their life not interested, gift, or talented in any way. This person is insanly gifted, talneted, interesting and, good looking (not that I see them like that EWW). It doesn't seem to register to them that they are the complete package and should walk, talk, and act with a certain swagger that puts the fact that they are the shit on display for everyone to see. Even if they don't become the celebrity they have the ablitiy to become, I'd still like to hang around them hopefully they could become one of the fellas and kick it on occasion. I honestly wish I could tell them to just live up to their potential, and should they did decide to become more I'd have be more of a foe then a friend if I didn't warn them that it wouldn't be easy, heck it might even be painful.
Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. [. . .]It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquillity. - Khalil Gibran (died April 10, 1931)
( Ending Verse )
HELLS YES! Everything is coming up Rossi for once.
- Music:mc chris - hoodie ninja
The world'll feel my truths
Through my Hard Knock Life time
My Gift and The Curse
I gave you volume after volume of my work
So you can feel my truths
-Moment of Clarity -
'Determined' is the only word that can describe my personality at the moment. I have tunnel vision focused on my Math 110 course which is pre-cal my weakest subject. Recently I've pulled all nighters and began to study daily for every lesson just to survive the course. Today I took a hit and did terrible on a quiz because I was playing catch-up the night before. Improving my station in life seems very possible now that I almost have an Associate in Science and Microsoft Office certification. How badass is THAT! I'm applying for a job at Best Buy for the time being while I wait for a position at scana to open up or the SCE&G roll of 'IT guy' to still be an option.
Rachel Saxton... what more can I say. Not since the birth of my little sister Amber has a female caused me so much strife. Amber's birth may have been a time of major confusion; Amber herself turned out to be one of the greatest things in my life. Maybe Rachel will stick around and become the most badass friend ever.
You've only made 2 friends.
Find Friends and Communities
That make me feel flyer than lobbys at bellevues
An exclaimer just aramore no credentials from a school
Rachel & Jeff are hitting a rough patch so its all up to Jeff to step up to the plate and win her over with some grand gesture that comes from the heart. I don't really know Jeff that well, but I hope he figures something out because Rachel has been my friend for years now, and she is stuck in a funk. Apparently I look like a jerk because I took Rachel to go see her favorite band last night. I offered to stay home since I had guests over anyway, but it was her favorite band and Jeff did not feel like going. So I kicked people out my house hopped in the car and drove for hours to take her to the show. Maybe that was being too nice? I don't think I should have to move the bar down for her boyfriend to look good. Eh I love that crazy broad. If I couldn't drive and mc chris was in Charleston I'd expect someone to drive me to that show.
Well I feel like I've been wasting my talents for too long now and decided to try and write a web show. This is either a really bad or really good idea theres no in between. So far I've found two people have have acting abilities. Assuming the writingb that me and a few other people crunch out is excellentb this could work. The only thing missing is a cast, other writers, and equipment so this is going to require a lot of work. Hopefully I don't bail by using school or sickness as an excuse.
Three days ago at Hooters Tony, Jason, Clinton, Wyatt and myself destroyed at a Rock Band 2 competition winning free merchidise. Honestly I had a pretty shitty time and only went because I'm amazing at video games and was pretty much guarrentted to win. For the past few weeks I've been hanging out a lot with those guys maybe a little too much so from now on I'm going to just chill out in my house some nights. Which is hard since Wyatt & Dillon are my neighbors and we're all really cool with each other, and they have an awesome gaming setup.
God I hate Hooters. Women that normally wouldn't even look at me are flirting and striking up a conversations. No thx. Just act normal plz
- Mood:
nostalgic - Music:Lupe Fiasco - Gotta Eat
